Wet, grey and cloudy. It was also very cold. We are officially still in the summer season but it felt like the middle of autumn. I still haven't had a chance to get out the warm clothes out of my loft and need to do that soon if the weather continues this way. I felt totally lethargic today and ended up falling asleep around 1pm for about 30 minutes.

At exactly 3:30pm, my student arrived...a student that hasn't been here for about two months. Like always, he was in a depressed state(been that way for over a year actually and never seen him happy) and just wanted me to listen to him like a counselor. It really makes me wonder what he's paying me for. Anyway we ended up talking about him and his problems for most of the hour. Although I try not to get involved, I couldn't help but give him some of my advise. I told him that he really needs to just do something...I mean take some action to create change. He says he just wants to go with the flow and that things will probably work out because everything is already pre-determined...you know like destiny. I told him that's utter bullshit and that although destiny may be true to a point, we have the power to decide and take action to create change.

Don't really know if any advice would actually help him as he's been this way ever since I met him a year ago. He's stuck in this rut and can't seem to get out of it. In fact, he digs himself deeper and deeper so that he's just stuck there. I can only help him so much, after that it's really up to him.

I was able to work out today with just a little discomfort in my chest. Seriously, I'm beginning to wonder if this is all really just a case of panic attacks as my doctors have been telling me all these years. I mean panic attacks are supposed to be attacks right? These are more like symptoms, physical symptoms. I think I may have to go to a heart specialist to get a second opinion just for peace of mind.

Tomorrow is Friday and the weather forecast is for a beautiful sunny day. The last sunny day in fact, before the weekend due to a large typhoon coming our way.

Decision of the day:
Decided not to masturbate and save it for tomorrow. I am so bored with masturbating.